Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in tularisgp's LiveJournal:

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Monday, September 14th, 2009
4:04 pm	here we go again. hope this doesnt end in fiery crash. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 17th, 2009
11:55 am	women are annoying the shit out of me lately. its all been the same. zero accountability, double standards, and just all around bullshit. anyhow. i have a diff blog now. http://hellfishracing.blogspot.com see ya (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 23rd, 2008
10:52 pm	you like my bra? lol. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 18th, 2008
6:07 pm	samm is interviewin The Rules: 1. Leave me a comment saying, "Interview me" or something of an equally pithy nature. 2. I will respond by asking you 5 questions of a very personal nature. Be warned! 3. You will update your LJ with the answers to the questions, or there will be trouble. 4. You will include this and an offer to interview someone else in the post. 5. When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them 5 questions. 1) Tell me about a moment that took your breath away. there have been so many. first ever that really got me to stop and think was pulling out of pit lane at laguna seca, and flooring it out of the famous corkscrew turn. i embedded an image of it, but i dont know where it went. its basically a four story drop and it leaves you with a mix of emotions: fear, excitement, bliss, and giddy-ness. the reason it took my breath away, was that, i was actually doing it, and driving on it. ive played on it in several video games, but to actually be there. is a different story. 2) Starting from when we 'met' to now, give me 3 examples of how you've changed. are you happy with these changes? my hair changes like the seasons. i no longer try to please people, just myself. doing a pretty good job about it, and i like. and im not so quick to get attached to a female. that got a little too heartache-y. 3)Think deep. What is your biggest, most heart wrenching fear? being thrown off of a building. i have an issue with heights. but the even bigger issue is falling. death for myself hasnt been an issue. i learned at a young age that everyone has their time. and when your card is up, i just hope that you enjoyed your time. 4)If you could only see one person for the rest of your life(and I'm talking just talking to them, not dating), who would it be and why? probably george w. so i could wake up everyday and look forward to beating up on him. lol, im just kidding, right NSA? id like to hang out with...brad pitt...haha, oddly enough it looks as though we share alot of interests and well, maybe i could catch angelina comin out of the shower or something. 5)What is something you plan to do within the year? What steps are you taking to achieve that goal? travel to eastern europe and through europe again. in november i plan on going to greece to see my friend run in the athens marathon. and next year for the 24 hours of le mans i want to be there as media and really enjoy myself. travelling is really my main concern with life. i also plan on coming out to the east coast again. of course. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 28th, 2008
1:40 am	love. nah, fuck it. i just wanna spend my days at the race track, or sitting in the shop getting things ready to be at the track. it used to be so easy for me to be open with how i felt about em. after getting shafted so many times, its become harder and harder. and at this point ignoring people and treating some like crap comes so easy. its always been easy to cut people from my life. like a switch thats flipped and boom, theyre gone and i dont contact them again. several people have fallen into that treatment that i never thought would or could. how sad. for them. i tried to be a good friend. i tried to be an even better boyfriend. still not enough. or was it too much? ah well, its alright though, the machine keeps trudging along and time will pass. time does heal and you think less and less about these souls, since you have new ones pop into your life to keep you entertained. so, heres to progress. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, April 21st, 2008
11:04 pm	gotta know what it is. sitting on the starting grid. sweating while strapped in. beautiful girls along side with umbrellas. rapping on the throttle to keep the idle up. green flag drops.... and we're off. these past few months have been full of pressure. un-needed, yet necessary pressure to keep me on my toes and doing what i love. the cars that greet me in the morning when i open the door are not the kind you see on the street and think oh, thats a nice one. no, these are rare, 6 figure cars that wouldnt skip a beat while being thrashed at the race course. building them, tuning them, is just surreal. being that i dreamt of these days while in school. i dont mind that im not the main driver, or the star of the team. i just like to know that without me, it wouldnt work. thats a hell of a feeling knowin that youre a integral cog in the machine that is automotive road racing. hell, vintage road racing at that. im enjoying my life. single. fast. random. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 20th, 2008
7:17 pm	nearly a year since i last posted. another relationship come and gone. i realize that its not time to be with anyone. corrently having a good time working on fast cars and driving em. another car in the stable, and well, lifes working out pretty well right now. enjoy yourselves. its gonna be a great year. (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 24th, 2007
4:03 pm	since we're all venting the air i watched chasing amy again the other night. it made me think of how ridiculous the end of mine and raychels relationship was. she left me because things were going to fast. and in her head i was still in love with vala. i havent said that name in a long time. shite. anyhow. vala, is a long story. and a lost story. i havent thought about her for a long time, and well, she had nothing to do with anything in my life. id understand if i still talked to her, or even talked about her. but i never did. i never compared the two, and well i just didnt think it was appropriate. i loved raychel. with every ounce, every pound. i hadnt loved anyone like that in a long time. not since vala. pretty fucked eh? the only reason raych ever had anything to bother her about vala, was because she asked questions. i answered them honestly. and well, that got twisted in her head, now here we are. couldnt she just realize, that i cared about her? and that my past was my past? i knew her past, and how fucked it was, and that never bothered me. i only cared about where we were, and what we were gonna do tomorrow. if i had kept looking back, i would have gone insane. but thats not what im for. i just want things to go with the flow. and just enjoy my company. and by company i mean the person im with. enjoy life. thats what i live by. and i will never stray from it. i enjoy my life. with my family. with my friends. period. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, January 16th, 2007
12:27 am	message to Apple. if you ever make the iCar, i may have to destroy something. something big and valuable. that is all. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, December 18th, 2006
9:19 am	ive been neglecting this journal alot lately. whats new? well, ive been working alot lately. bought another car. working on yet another motorcycle. and rocking on. some bad things have happened since the last real entry. raychel broke up with me. and its been pretty bad lately. but in the past week ive started to move on and basically tell her to fuck off. its just made me so tired, and im sick of having to apologize for being me. shes young and immature, and selfish basically. now that i think of it, shes never really asked how ive been or reached out really unless i made her. which also brings to mind why i would stick around with that. well, its just the novelty really. it was nice having someone around. a playmate. someone to share things with. but now that i think, it wouldnt have been entirely healthy. so off you go. ive had some ideas of moving up north to san ramon and staying with some friends. not exactly cememted just yet, just kind of debating and going back and forth with it. this weekend though was my favorite. D1 racing event at irwindale speedway. rain. cold. tire smoke. thats all i live for really. well, among other things. ill be back to write more later. tired. and freezing my nips off. (Comment on this)
Saturday, December 16th, 2006
6:38 pm	Why did you kill one more Heart tonight, Don't you need someone to Hold you tight, Who will Love you like I Love, who will Hold you like I Hold, I know Love that you will never find! Take away with you the moon and stars, Shining in the Beauty of your Eyes, Take away my flowers and my kisses, You don't need my Love and you won't miss me! I will hide my feelings deep inside, Somewhere in the beatings of my Heart, Go away, just leave me Dying, (Comment on this)
Wednesday, December 6th, 2006
11:39 pm	i thought last night, and realized what it was you found your cop out answer and ran with it i hope you can live with your decision (Comment on this)
Monday, December 4th, 2006
7:33 am	there was a spark there a connection that held so true but what the fuck happened its gone, like it was never there (Comment on this)
Monday, October 23rd, 2006
5:41 pm	All Over Again Every time I look at you I fall in love, all over again Every time I think of you it all begins, all over again One little dream at night and I can dream all day It only takes a memory to thrill me One little kiss from you and I just fly away Pour me out your love until you fill me I wanna fall in love beginning from the start, all over again Show me how you stole away my heart, all over again One little dream at night and I can dream all day It only takes a memory to thrill me One little kiss from you and I just fly away Pour me out your love until you fill me I wanna fall in love beginning from the start, all over again Show me how you stole away my heart, all over again All over again, All over again, All over again, All over again All Over Again -Johnny Cash (Comment on this)
Sunday, October 15th, 2006
9:05 pm	ive had it with waiting around for people. i dont like being late, and i dont like it when people are late. im not trying to be an ass about this, but if i tell you, that ive gotta be somewhere at a certain time, then i need to be there. im not about being "fashionably late" if im told to be somewhere at a certain time, then ill be there. but lately, everyone has been dragging ass, and really bothering me. or if i say im gonna be somewhere and im tryin to call the person and they dont answer the phone. that irritates me more, because i know how many times some of these people check their phones and wait for something to come up. so thats just bullshit. (Comment on this)
Monday, September 25th, 2006
2:05 am	its heart breaking to hear that someone you love thinks youre lying. i know ive lied in the past about stupid things. and that was then. i understand that its hard to turst someone thats lied to you before. but it still really hurts that the time you are telling the truth, they think youre lying. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 11th, 2006
7:50 pm	everyone else is doin it... ( My Interests Collage! ) Create your own! Originally Written By ga_woo, Hosted and ReWritten by darkman424 (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 30th, 2006
11:16 pm	due to my own negligence, my world has been turned upside down... my heart has never felt this hurt before... it was my fault, and i feel like ive never felt before... i did this, yet i am hurting so much for my own actions... i just want it to be right again, and to have things come back... due to my own negligence, my world has been turned upside down... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 24th, 2006
11:35 pm	there is alot more to life than buying clothes that are too expensive and talking about stupid shallow shit. i like animals. theyre furry. and they dont talk back. and well, theyll love you forever if you treat them right. ya see. animals make you feel better. stop being a retard. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, August 17th, 2006
11:15 am	ATTENTION!!! if i havent told you this already, you need to know that echoes by pink floyd syncs up with the last 25 minutes of 2001 a space odyssey. check it out, let me know what you think. its readily available on limewire already synced up with the track. its actually mindblowing. well, when youre stoned its more exciting, but its still pretty cool and a little more on it, than the dark side of the moon/alice in wonderland thing. (Comment on this)